Ok. I have flu the next day when I woke up after I came back around 12 midnight after spending the evening with my colleagues. After taking Clarinase, my flu subsides but I started getting headaches. Probably due to the heaty weather. For the whole day, I slept thinking my headache will get better but to no avail. Even during the night when everyone was sound asleep, I kept tossing and turning and always have the feeling of intermittent hot and cold. It was very torturing for me. Lucky that my grandma advised me to take my sis's medicine (because she also had the same problem as me), am I able to get a few hours of sleep peacefully.

Torturing it is for me when i think about all those pills which i have to swallow. Pity for me that i can't really swallow those "big" pills. I don't really quite understand why i can't but whenever i do swallow these "big" pills, i have to force myself not to vomit out.

Now i don't even have appetite to eat. My appetite is getting smaller which I'm surprised with myself too. Hope I'm not the victim of those anorexia kids which i saw on tv. haiz.

Why am I so weak? I was always that weak since young. I still can remember visiting the doctor at his beauty world centre clinic so often that I think he can remember me.

Now, not just my body is weak, my mind is also weak. I'm feel dreadful going to work. Not because of the colleagues or the boss. I'm also sick of working on the stuff I'm doing now. Although I won't say entirely, but part of it is. Maybe, when my boiling point has reached it's limit and burst, I think it will be the end of this job.